2019… what can I say? You were incredibly challenging… but oh how thankful I am for you.
God made us resilient. He is healer. PTL! What does He desire for us? Our wholeness… shalom! Once I wrapped my head and heart around this truth… everything changed. He came, and I saw the promise right before my eyes.
“Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy.” Psalms 126:5
At the beginning of 2019 I came home to what I would call, dust. Everything, obliterated into thin air. Just the smithereens of what was—left for me to behold. The word the Lord gave me, connection. I laughed out loud. But in the very same breath ached to embrace this possibility.
It was a year of shaking, I felt it tangibly. My heart explodes with gratitude for the ground gained. Breakthrough after breakthrough… chains I wasn’t even aware existed— broke, strongholds—tore down. It’s as if I entered into a whole new relationship with my God, my Savior.
“Life takes a bit of time and a lot of relationship— The Shack.”
2019, you were a year of choice. My best choice: to take God out of the box I had so carefully wrapped Him in. PTL, He gave me a fresh start. I learned I am loved, I am loved, I am loved… whether struggling or passing the test of life with flying colors. I am loved. I learned I have inherent worth, it comes from being made in the image of God… and nothing can diminish it… not even if I chose to walk away from God… (that for me would be my darkest moment)… I’d still be loved. This was a whole new take on grace. It spilled over into my entire life. I embraced compassion, I held space for me. “What would love do?” I decided to be kind to myself, especially the unfinished parts. “Present over perfect.” I chose to show up! I chose a new perspective… yes we live in a broken world, and it can be very ugly, but the truth: reality has two sides… good and evil… beauty and pain… you can’t get one without the other… there may be ashes… but beauty can always be found. PTL!
“All I did was praise. All I did was worship. All I did was bow down. All I did was stay still. Hallelujah, You have saved me. So much better Your way. Hallelujah, great Defender. So much better this way. — Defender” 🎶
Alright 2020, ready or not, here I come!
“Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”