This has been a season of learning to be kind to myself. Learning to not smash myself to the ground because I fell short. But instead learning to recognize that every single second of every single day I have a choice and I can choose different.
To choose a thought that is going to bring life and not death. To choose to see every lesson as an opportunity for equipping and not sit in total despair because I stumbled or flat out fell down. To choose to forget the former and press on to what’s new. To choose to see and embrace the things I have and stop with the “but there’s something missing” thoughts that cause me to spiral into hopelessness. To choose to live by faith and not by sight. To choose the wholeness, healing, freedom, and all the riches that were purchased on the cross through the shed blood of Jesus Christ for me. I’m taking back what the enemy has stolen. I’m driving a stake into the ground. I am claiming my land.
I have chosen to be a woman who believes in the unseen, a woman who is no longer crushed by reality. She sees her God, who He is and His good plans for her and all. A woman who is no longer ignorant of what is rightfully hers. A woman who meditates on the truth, makes it her own. A woman who has an eternal mindset and not an earthly one. A woman who stands in the gap for others. A woman who chooses daily to pick up the armor and fight because she knows the power and presence within her.
She is a warrior.
Rebekah Lynn, it’s time you open your eyes. It’s time you wipe those tears away. No, the balloons will not be coming out today, maybe to celebrate my Jesus and the fact that He lives, but not for this pity party. It’s time you start counting your blessings. You truly are blessed. It’s time you start living what you believe. It’s time you look up… see the people around you, the ones that love you, and even the ones you don’t yet know. They need you. Get to know them. Be the only gospel they might ever read. The kingdom of heaven is right here, right now.
In the moment I start to spiral down, Holy Spirit convict me, help me, remind me of truth, quickly pull me out… refresh me with a new thought.
I choose that which is greater.