He said, “ask and you will receive.”
And so I asked… the daring question,
“Lord make me a woman of greater faith.” I should have expected He would do just that. “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters. Wherever You would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander. And my faith will be made stronger. In the presence of my Savior” Oceans (Hillsong United)
This is a popular song we sing in church. Often I stare at the lyrics and think to myself… do we really know what we are asking for? Do we know what we are saying? I’m not even sure I know… in my understanding I’m asking the Lord to take me to a place where no one and nothing but He can save me… not even myself. That’s a bold ask. That’s brave.
A week ago today I went up to my pastor at church and asked him to pray two words over me… “patience,” and “relinquishing control.” My pastor replied, “yikes, you know what your asking for right, are you sure?” I said, “yes.” And guess what? … of course He answered.
I’m not sure why I was surprised when I ended up where I am now— out in the waves, at the testing place.
He’s led me to a place where I have no other choice than to wait and watch Him go before me as I enter into a million unknowns, even more uncertainties. A place where the only thing I can do is get on my knees in prayer and surrender, and watch Him act on behalf of His beloved. “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”
When I am grounded in Christ, when my eyes are fixed on Jesus, and when I fear the Lord alone, I remember that I am not the wave tossed to and fro… no.
I am the ocean.
Through the strength that only my Savior can give me I am choosing to rise above the storm. As I do, I am certain… He will make me a woman of greater faith. It is well with my soul. “But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. To Him be the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen.”
I Peter 5:10-11