Coming to understand no one can love me like Jesus can…
Today was a day of everywhere emotions, uncontrollable, messy, at times embarrassing.
It was a hard day.
At the same time very special…
I finally was able to let my Savior hold me.
I was able to extend compassion to myself and let the tears roll down my cheek.
Rarely do I let myself do this.
Rarely do I let my Father comfort me in my pain.
I usually tell myself, “Bekah stop being such a cry baby, grow up!”
But I let myself feel the emotion for a little while this time. And in the midst of doing so, His embrace was like no other.
It felt as if He came down and wrapped me in the biggest bear hug known to man, and I felt the peace that surpasses all understanding.
Today I came to know God’s love, His embrace in a whole new way.
What was my secret you may ask? I allowed Him to hold me.
Often times we run from His love because it’s unlike any love we’ve ever known and it scares us. It’s perfect love and we feel too much shame to allow Him to love us like that. We don’t understand how He even could or why… We tell ourselves we are undeserving.
But today was a day I chose to let those walls come down.
“LORD, my heart is not haughty, Nor my eyes lofty. Neither do I concern myself with great matters, Nor with things too profound for me. Surely I have calmed and quieted my soul, Like a weaned child with his mother; Like a weaned child is my soul within me. O Israel, hope in the LORD From this time forth and forever.”
Psalms 131:1-3 NKJV
I experienced a glimpse of what it means to be a weaned child with her mother… an image of a child no longer unsettled, but content, and at peace, simply trusting in her mother to comfort, and also provide all her needs. I learnt to be held. I let Him rock me in His arms.
Today was a beautiful day…