“Whatever weakens your reason, impairs the tenderness of your conscience, obscures your sense of God, takes off your relish for spiritual things, whatever increases the authority of the body over the mind, that thing is sin to you, however innocent it may seem in itself.”
– Unknown

The Lord revealed to me a sin in my life while I sat amongst the congregation at church today… The sin of independence, of thinking I can do this life all on my own. I can fix myself. What I’m really saying subconsciously is God I don’t need You.

Often times I get caught off guard and start to panic and think I must not be in the right place if I’m in this state… where I literally can’t seem to do anything right, or have a right mindset, where I can’t take my thoughts captive, where my heart is so fickle, constantly divided and wandering, where my feelings are so fleeting and I’m restless. An absolute mess.
But the truth of the matter is I’m exactly where He wants me to be.

Utterly weak so that He can finally show Himself strong. He is glorified.

Recognizing that in and of myself I can do nothing. I come to a place of rest when I choose to lay it all down, to say God I want to, but I can’t. I know You can and I choose to rest in that.

I find security.

I finally really seek Him, and let Him lead.

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:9‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

The Lords been teaching me that I was never supposed to be able to do this life on my own. He created me needy. I was made to rely on Him. To be in drastic need of Him. At all times. After all He is the only one who can cure this incurable disease within me.

He’s the only One who can give me new life.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭5:17‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

We all fall short of the glory of God. (Romans 3:23)

Not one is exempt.

Not one is not in desperate need of His unfailing love, His limitless grace, and His endless mercies.

We need Him.

We can do nothing without Him.

I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.
‭‭John‬ ‭15:5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Many times we as mere humans think the more we come to know Him, the less we are going to need Him. The more independent we can be. When really it’s the opposite…
The more we come to know Him the more we recognize the desperate need we have for our Savior. For Him to work, to act, to move. To cover us in His love and grace.

Let’s abide in Him today, and when we fail to do so, let’s come to Him. Let’s return back to the foot of the cross, in all humility, saying Lord lead.

Published by: Rebekah Clearwater

In a world of noise, writing is the catalyst that drives my focus back to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, and reminds me of the hope I have in Him— nothing has changed, yet everything has changed.

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