He pursued me first…

We all have fallen short, we have all missed the mark.

“But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭5:8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

In and of myself I cannot be nor can even have a desire to be righteous. I live in a fallen world, in a fallen nature. A nature that is all about me. A nature where only evil dwells.

“But we are all like an unclean thing, And all our righteousnesses are like filthy rags; We all fade as a leaf, And our iniquities, like the wind, Have taken us away.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭64:6‬ ‭NKJV‬

My flesh wars against me daily. It wants to reign. It wants power, it does not want to be under any authority. It wants to put me first. Not others. It wants to rule.

It wants what it wants.

My flesh wants pity parties, and more pity parties.

“I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭7:21-25‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

I thank God– through Jesus Christ our Lord that He will deliver me from this body of death and He HAS!

Ahh what great GRACE!

I’ve been finding such freedom lately in knowing that any good I do or any desire for good that I do…

That’s Him.

That’s not me.

“But God forbid that I should boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, by whom the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world. For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision avails anything, but a new creation.”
‭‭Galatians‬ ‭6:14-15‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Even in being obedient. I only was obedient or can be obedient because He put that desire in me to be.
To trust the Father. To surrender to Him.

Anything that is in me that is good is not from me. It is from Him.

He planted that desire in me to begin this walk with Him. It is Him who gives me the desire to continue doing so. To continue seeking His face. To continue living my life for His glory, and desiring to know Him more.
He gives me the passion to do His will.

I can take no credit.

“being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ;”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭1:6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

He promises to never stop His sanctifying work. The work where He is conforming us into the image of His Son.

I’m so thankful that it is His work and not mine.

That failure isn’t in the cards, because He never fails.

I don’t need to worry about anything when it comes to living this life with Him. Because He has me in the palm of His hand, and the work He is doing is HIS.


Before we were even remotely close to having a desire for Him. He desired us. He pursued us. And He has never stopped.

We can never be separated from the love of the Father.

So why do I start to panic when I’m not seeing change or growth in my life?

It’s because I have started to believe that it takes my efforts, my strength, my work… to cleanse me. To make me more worthy. More righteous. More set apart… To sanctify me.

The truth is that IN CHRIST I am worthy. I am righteous. I am set apart.

That is my position.

It’s nothing I have done that has got me to have that kind of identity. It’s what He DID!

By coming to this earth. Emptying Himself. Walking this earth as man. Being without sin. A perfect example. The only One able to be my substitute. Trusting the Father all the way through. Taking my sin on Himself, and dying the most excruciating death on the cross. Exchanging His life for my own. And then rising again and giving me the opportunity to have this newness of life.


He is the propitiation, the answer, the fulfillment. He paid the debt. It’s not my debt to pay. I couldn’t pay it.

We once were under the law. But He came to fulfill the law, to bring it to its intended meaning. To show us that in and of ourselves it is impossible to fully please God. We cannot save ourselves. We are in desperate need of a SAVIOR…

So He came.

We are no longer saved by the law but by GRACE.

He is the way. The truth. The life.

It is through Jesus Christ that I now can enter into this beautiful relationship with my Father. The One who has always loved me. Who has always desired me, and has always KNOWN me.

He knows the very hairs on my head. He knows each thought I think, and the next one after that. He knew me before I was even formed in my mothers womb. He’s always had a plan for my life. A plan to prosper me and not to harm me. To give me a future and a hope!

He calls me fearfully and wonderfully made.

This is what really has been encouraging me these days…

Learning more about this unconditional love, this endless grace that He has extended to each and every one of us who is willing to just say, “Father I repent. I turn from my ways. I give my life to you. I surrender my filthy rags, and I COME!”

Published by: Rebekah Clearwater

In a world of noise, writing is the catalyst that drives my focus back to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, and reminds me of the hope I have in Him— nothing has changed, yet everything has changed.

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